Burning myself

“They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.”
― Andy Warhol, The Philosophy of Andy Warhol

“It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important.”
― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

 

Time and again, I picked up the old course Java programming which should be done by myself before. At this time, for who have already graduated for seven years start it all over again in the coding world, given that he quits in the course one or two times before, for the third times, you can consider that how he make his decision.

Yes, again, I picked up my books and studied, although I need to work daytime, I still power up myself to study at night as I prepared to burn myself whatever. With clicking the keyboard, and searching for the resources, I always feel happy to learn the things I interested. Sometimes, I met problems, but it is reflected in another view that I can gain something new and that’s why I must overcome it.

Why do I choose this road? I think the reason can listed as follows. First, I am not a guy who are good at social, or I do not like to put much energy with persuading others to buy the products. I am an inner person, most of the time I like enjoying the quiet. Second, I do not like to depend on others, so master a tech skills would be perfect for me. In any case, coding is not a bad choice. There is only one thing worried me, as mentioned before, I start it again seven years later, I don’t know in what an extent I fall behind others. That’s why I should be more diligent. However, I raise the question that, why I pick up the old course again? Is it mean that I was limited in horizon? I can not think other ways to help myself out. Nonetheless, I can not give up once more and I must make the most of the time, time is valuable. It reminds me again that, choose carefully.

Long time it will take, but I believe, one day we will meet. Just like the music played, “riding on my own I speed, riding on a road of fire…”